The Sun Was Shining Everywhere

i sit down to write. and what do i have? what is the only thing i can find? a blue pen. a blue. fucking. pen. and a shit pen at that. ugly to look at. ugly to write with. someone's free gift from some animal clinic in some Ohio town i've never heard of. and if you really think about it, Ohio has a lot of towns, comparatively speaking, that i, or any other relatively well educated person, has, if nothing else, heard of. Cleveland, Columbus, Kent, Dayton, Youngstown, Canton, Springfield (or one at least assumes). but this town? i don't even know that many people in Ohio, have only been there a handful of times, and each visit brief or simply passing through. a blue fucking pen. i certainly don't know anyone in Ohio with a pet.

i forgot Cincinnati...

no... that's not true. a cat. an old friend living in Ohio has a cat. but i haven't seen her in years. and besides, she knows better than to give me a blue pen. although there was once that she did, in fact, give me a blue pen. she was working at some terrible place, tex-mex cuisine, pre-packed and franchised out. i showed up late under the guise of craving quesadillas and cheap margaritas, pretending to write with an ink-less pen.

- we're slow so i can give you this... to a waitress a pen is worth its weight in gold... i'll need it back.

i believe i wrote that she saved my life. did i mention that i was there because i was in love? do i even need to? but i haven't seen her in years.

and Akron...

i loved another girl in Ohio once, or rather, i loved her before we went to Ohio, and i loved her once we left, but our time in Ohio... it's all over now and as often is the case it's impossible to believe you were ever in love or that you could be anything but. and now, at this moment, a blue pen is the only thing that connects me to her, to what we shared.

Bowling Green...

and like a sieve these vague ethereal memories hold nothing more than remnant drops, like faded blue ink on a whiskey soaked page.

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